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Thursday, December 31, 2009

#32: goodbye 2009, hi there 2010! (;

This post is pre-typed, a few days before Year 2009 comes to an end, and before we wave a big hello and offer a warm hug to welcome Year 2010’s arrival. So, what have you done this Year 2009? What are your memorable events that you’ll never forget about in 2009? And what are the most precious gains and bitter loses this 2009? And perhaps, what are your resolutions for Year 2010?

(Shit, talking about resolutions, I did not complete my resolutions for Year 2009. I need to dig them out, but I can’t find my blog link for that post. Result of switching blog hosts and blog links too much.)

Here is mine.

What have I done in Year 2009?

In Year 2009, I’m in the third and final year of my poly life.

Made new friends, lose some close friendships too. Trade off. Went overseas with the school, for DIOM China trip during my birthday period. Celebrated my 20th birthday in Overseas for the first time, celebrated my birthday in China. Fell for the wrong guys too much, broke my heart a little more than I should. And got over it, a little better than I thought I could. Started to regret a number of things, regretted not performing my best for the first two years in my tertiary education. And on a good note, learnt from the regrets and tried to perform better for my last semester in RP. Aren’t the best, but still going on good, and it should get better. Cried for the first time over education matters after so many years (FYP was the cause). Realized parents cared a lot that they told me not to stress myself too much over school if I really can’t cope. To let it be, be my best, do my best. And also for the first time felt so stressed up by projects, Professional Profiling in Year 2 was so no-kick, come to think of FYP put beside it. Relationship wise, neglected a number of close ones, am highly guilty of it. Regret it, but there seems to be no good solution for it. I always hoped I do not have to forsake some friends for another, but I always ended up not being able to. I always ended up having to give up or forsake some to gain others. Okay, thought of this nonsensical one.

Played sparklers for the first time I can remember of during lantern festival celebrations with Huimin. Am glad till the end of Year 2009, this 14 over years of friendship with her is still there, the closeness is still there though we don’t contact all the time. But, am really very glad our friendship managed to get this far. She’s one good friend that has seen through me in all stages of my life, one friend that my family knows of well. And I’m really very glad that this year, 2009, she is still part of my life. I love this girl of mine to bits, I swear. Through her loudness, her crappiness, her volume, her everything, she’s the one who shows me concern, who I can just go to and she knows that she can just pop by my house to find me when she needs someone close to her to talk to. This is what our friendship brings. And that 20th birthday surprise where you popped up on my place the day before I went over to China. Love that surprise a lot, and the cushion is still beside me every night. And the frame and mirror that is used to remind me to be happy everyday. Babe, if you’re reading this, thank you for everything okay.

Year 2009 has been so eventful, as far as I can recall of. What was the most memorable and most unforgettable event of this year that I can never forget? China trip from August 26th to September 2nd with the school was one. I had great company with me, Sokky, Serena, JJ. And then, the rest of the SOT crew for the laughter.

Then, got to know more friends, got closer to them. Some just remained as hi-bye, a few I do hang out with. Hanis, Serena, Ruth, Sokky, we girls do love shopping in China uh! Thanks to JJ for looking out for us in China during our shopping trips too. Thanks for just being there with us, being the only guy with us during all our shopping trips.

And sokky, I won’t forget that you’re the most of my China trip memories okay, since you’re my room mate for that one week, and our dirty little secrets that only we know k! Thanks for everything you’ve done for me too, for the concern during FYP days, for looking out for me during the China trip too. For being so sweet and bringing my 20th birthday present all the way from Singapore to China, just to give it to me on my birthday itself. Speaking of my birthday, thanks to the whole China trip crew for the surprise though I sort of guessed it at the restaurant. Thanks to my lovely girls for collaborating with JJ for the mini surprise on the dot of my 20th birthday. Thanks for both surprises.

Celebrated my 20th birthday in China was one great one too, and also the first time I was away from my family on my birthday. Oh, for the first time I was away from my family for a period of 7 days and being able to not miss them at all during the trip. I’d thought I would be crying in the hotel room in the night because I miss Mommy. But I didn’t, in fact it was my friends that made it possible. Also the concern from my friends and Mr Supervisor, Miss Koh and the tour guides when I officially got ill on the last day of the trip, major discomfort.

Major events, what else. Year 2009 was the year some unhappiness happened between A & B. End of Year 2009 was the year that the two of them got better and sort of kicked the past behind them. I felt happy for them, a lot happier. Year 2009 was the year I got so stressed up with my FYP I that I got into a major quarrel, cold war and heated argument with my Mommy. And I did the silliest things because of it, was truly sorry for that. Glad to know that friends cared too, during the times when I was so stressed up.

FYP, major thanks to my FYP team mates no matter what, Sokky, JJ, Fang Yuan, and Bingao. Thank you for just being in the team, we got through all the nonsense together, let’s just endures for one final few weeks! Cheese fries, I know. Thank you for tolerating with my naggings, and constant bugging during the FYP days (in which I’m still going to), sorry but that was for the better of the team. And also for teaching me along the way when I don’t understand a shit, thanks just for helping, working together. Thank you too, Mr Liu for the supervision, though it turned out to be more stress for me. (;

My most precious gains this Year 2009 was not something materialistic, not something physical, not something of high value. But it’s friendship. And I hope these friendships do not die off by end of Year 2010, nor 2011, nor 2012. Nor as far as I can tell of. Relationships with family and friends are the most precious things that I ever possessed, and it’s the most precious things that I hope I can never lose any.

Bitter loses this Year 2009, was friendship matters too. I didn’t exactly lose those friendships, but it kind of got on the down side. My dear Ting Hui, Felicia and Cheryl, sorry that I’ve been neglecting you all a whole lot after we changed classes. My bad, my bad. But I’m having difficulties balancing out myself, so yeah. I’m so sorry, but you all know I love you all right; at least you were the ones who were with me to get through a lot of shit together too, since year 2 Semester 1 when I first knew you all in the class. Let’s go out together soon when 2010 comes okay. I hope it wouldn’t be too weird then. Because you three are in the same FYP team, you all will outcast me. But I hope not. Let’s go shop and slack at our usual chilling places okay, I miss going there with you all, it feels just weird. Thank you for being part of my 2009 too, a huge part.

The last bit of my tertiary school life is coming to an end soon. That is then when I bid goodbye to RP, I will not be taking 168 to school every day, not the usual 169/902 every morning anymore. When 2010 comes, its time to bid goodbye to going to Woodlands interchange with the usuals, slacking in school with the usuals.

This year, my classes have been good. Am pretty glad that God made my last semester of my final year a great one, this year I met new friends, and new classmates that I could totally crap with. And they’re always the reasons why I go to school and why I am motivated to perform in class, partly it’s because I know I need that last boost before there’s no chance left for me. The other is of course them who made everyday enjoyable for me, no matter how worse the lessons gets. They who helped me along the lesson when I meet with problems, they who make me laugh and cheer me up when they sense that I’m not behaving like my usual self. They are the ones who can instantly sense that there is something’s up with me when I go all quiet, I don’t have to wait, they might be afraid to talk to me when I’m in a bad mood. But in the end, it’s their care and concern that makes me smile back again. It’s their efforts made to force me to smile and be happy. And I know who are the ones who are actually always there, more concerned about me than anyone else. And I’m sure they know who they’re, because it’s that few that I look for when I need to rant, and because it’s that few that will get me to say what’s bothering me. Thank you my motivations, Vanessa, Sokky, Yvonne, Yokeyu, Jiayu, Benjamin, JJ. (;

I always know and can sense who are the ones who care and who don’t, and who act like they care, but actually don’t bother to. But I’m thankful for having those who cares, those that will sms me from time to time to check how I’ve been. Those who will drop me messages on face book, or just check out my blog. Those that upon seeing my msn nick/pm, that will come talk to me about it, to offer a listening ear, to check that I’m okay. Those who haven’t forgotten me though we seldom have time to meet up already. Those that will offer a listening ear, I know I just need to tell them I’m not okay and they will be there to listen, to advice. In one way or another, those who have showed concerned about me when I'm down and out, through any means.

Here’s to these people especially, Vanessa, Serena, Qianyi, Huimin, Mandy, Sylvester, Xiaoben, Shunhui, Liangzhi, Eugene, and Kennedy. Oh, not forgetting, James that crazy English guy that I talk to so much. Thanks for always asking if I’m doing okay, and when I say, “I’m fine, why not?”, he’ll always go “why do you always ask me the same thing? Just wanted to see if you’re okay, if not I’ll ask you about it.” I love you all much, for being nice to me. (;

Last but not least, the last bit of my thanksgiving for 2009, before a brand new year comes. (;

The people who matters the most no matter how much I say I dislike them, or got sick of them. That is none other than my family. The ones who are blood related to me. My parents, for giving me a chance to live, for raising me up these 20 years. For offering me nothing but the best they can give me. For always trying their best to give me whatever I wish for. I got a nice comfy room to stay in, a warm home to live in, a place where I can just come home for dinner after my school. All these are made possible by my parents, my family. No matter how much they nag, how much I can’t stand their naggings and thinking sometimes, I know they always mean well. No matter how much my mum always tries to pull me down and bring me down. I need to know that I’m the most beautiful and perfect masterpiece in my parents’ eyes. I may have disappointed them many times, I may have not been able to make them feel proud about having me as their daughter, but I’m gonna stay filial to them. I hope they have the faith in me, I’m not heartless; I know how they treat me. I hope what I’m doing is acceptable to them. I hope they actually notice. Love you, thank you is never enough for them!

My brother bear, 20 years of knowing him as my elder brother. Times he gets on my nerves, times he treats me well but I simply throw it all away. But thank you for everything too. I remember when I quarreled with mum the other time, you were the one who try to stop the quarrel, to pick up my hand phone from the ground and piece it together for me again, to check that its working fine. I remember this clearly because that was the time when I felt nice to have a brother like that, to be there to make the situation better. Thank you so much, brother bear. I hope you grow up to be more sensible too. There are a lot of things that you need to act like your age. I hope you get enlightened soon. There’s so much even Mom & Dad can’t say, can’t change your mind about. Please do.

Thank you again, everyone who has made an impact or left a memory in my 2009.
I really love you all. I hope 2010 will be a awesome one for you all.

If 2009 has been bad for you, throw it aside. Year 2009 will be history in 20 hours' time.
Welcome 2010 with a big smile, it will be a great year ahead! XOXO.

HAPPY 2010, MY LOVES!
I WISH EVERYTHING GOES WELL IN 2010.
LETS ALL BE HAPPY IN 2010! (;

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