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Tuesday, December 29, 2009
#31: FUCK.
You never cared, you never did. Even when I asked for that bit of concern, I asked for that bit of time of yours to offer that listening ear. Even as a friend, you couldn't do it. Bottom line, you just frigging don't care about me. Even as a friend, you can't even be there.Forget it. Forget everything. I deserve better, I know I deserve better than a guy that don't even bother. This clearly shows how not important I'm. I was really pissed off, that close to crying, because of all the screwed plans. I asked for that bit of time from you. You weren't able to offer it to me. Forget it, I know how I frigging stand. You failed as a friend, you failed as a crush. You aren't that person that deserves me. You aren't that person whom I can count on. I analyzed the situation. I analyzed everything. Do I not deserve to be treated nicely? If you care, when you know I'm upset, when you felt I needed a listening ear, even as a friend, it would be nice if you could just offer me that bit of time. But apparently, you can't be bothered to. Apparently, I'm not important as a friend at all. You talk to me only when you want to, other times I'm just invisible. No matter how hard I try to make myself visible in front of you. I'D ENOUGH. Faced enough of nonsense from you. Want reply then reply, don't want reply then don't reply. Talk to you halfway, you disappear. When were the few times that we could have a full and complete talk without you disappearing, without you taking forever to reply. Without me waiting forever for you to reply, then in the end you don't. And I get upset, then I buzz off and think a lot again. Is it how important I'm as a friend to everyone else? FUCK IT. What is it about me that is going on wrong? I'm not sad now. I'm just pissed. So pissed that my tears just starts to roll. Damn it, all of you. Just fucking get out of my life. Especially you. I hate how much I know you're not the one. I hate how much I know it and how much I'm still hanging on in nowhere. It feels like being stuck hanging in the air. And it fucking piss me off seriously. GET IT, DIONA? JUST FUCKING LEAVE. JUST FUCKING FORGET ABOUT HIM. JUST FUCKING LET HIM BE, LET YOURSELF GO. HE DON'T CARE. IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA DO ANYTHING, THEN JUST FUCKING SCREW YOURSELF OF. And so what if it does upsets me that you don't give a fuck. So what if it does affects me a lot when I see how much you don't care. WHAT CAN I DO? NOTHING. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. AND MY DEAR FYP TEAM MATES. WHEN I SMS YOU, CAN YOU HAVE THE BASIC COURTESY TO JUST REPLY BACK? THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH. I'm demanding, I'm unreasonable. If you don't like me, just buzz off! RIGHT NOW, NO MATTER HOW UNREASONABLE I'M, DON'T LIKE IT JUST BUZZ OFF! FUCK OFF. And thank you so much to someone for their concern. even as a normal friend, even though I can't even meet him, he's nice enough to spot that I'm upset everytime and just drop a message to me or a comment on facebook to concern. Its really appreciated! I'M IN NO MOOD. BYE. |
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