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Thursday, December 17, 2009
#21: My best listening ears.
And this is what I call,"My blog is my best companion, my best listening ear." Once again, holidays have became more of a disaster than joy. Its every time when I look forward to the holidays after the torture from school. Then when holidays come, I start to regret looking forward to it. Because when I stay at home, not wanting to spend money when I go out, I do my usuals at home, then Mum starts nagging and throwing temper. She starts going on and on about me being lazy, not doing this and that. So, I got pissed off and I do what she wants, maybe she didn't mean that. But maybe she wanted that, so I go out, almost everyday with my friends. I don't stay at home that much, I go out often till late night. Then, know what? I guess you can guess it yourself. Yes, she starts telling my Dad, she starts complaining I'm out everyday. Okay, now tell me what do I do? Go out or stay home and appear to be non-existent? The reason I don't go out all the time is not because I feel too much comfort at home. I get too bored at home too, I wish I could be out everyday of my holidays too. But I'm not working, parents don't want me to work until school is over. Over as in I graduate from school. I don't have much income except my allowance. They think its more than enough, they think my allowance is more than enough to survive. They think, but do they know? But I'm not complaining about my allowance. I think its fine, just enough for me to survive, but I do need to practice self-control. But I know real myself I don't have much extra to be going out everyday, and I do spend a lot when I'm out, even just for a single day. so I stay at home and rot my day and night in. On computer most of the time, surfing, chatting, gaming. Then she starts to complain. Then I'm gonna stuff myself in my room. Plug in my earpieces, and appear to be non-existent at home. Until I get active when she's asleep, maybe that might seem better. I need her to do me a favor too, to act and just see it as my door is locked, and her daughter aren't at home at the moment, or most moments. When my earpieces are plugged, my music is blasting. She shouts from wherever she is for me, and when I can't hear her. Reason being, MY MUSIC IS PLAYING AND I CAN'T HEAR. Doesn't she sees me plug in my earpieces all the time?! She comes banging on my door or shouting even louder for me. Crap, I don't know how to solve this one. Tough luck. That solves it for now. Until further problems arrives. (: Life is just contradicting. I wonder why do humans get born into the world? Look, I'm not very upset, I'm just pissed. And this post has absolutely no link with the previous post. I'm fine the way I'm, and I'll be fine. Just stating what I feel, thank you for listening. (: just an invisible one. |
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