Diona Nicole; That Girl loved by him. ★

Thursday, July 29, 2010

That is why I run to you.

Its the first day of my holidays today, and I'm lazing on my bed now.
Feels so good, holidays till Aug 30th before my degree starts.
And I jolly well know thats the time to be good and no monkey business. xD

How time flies, D's 21st birthday in less than a month,
DIOM China Trip during my 20th birthday seems not far away.
And on a good note, adding to growing a year older,
Daddy's getting me my latest wish item on my wish list soon.
Part of my birthday gift from my parents. Hoping its worth it. (:

My holidays are here because I cleared all my bridging modules.
Both lessons and exams, imagine $460 for every lesson, I had 6 to clear.
How much it bombed my dad's pockets. :/

Results are coming back one by one, through my mailbox.
What can I say, this is just the beginning, but I'm glad I passed well.
And I'll have totally no confidence for good grades for the others,
especially Business Accounting and Business Statistics.
Give me a maths related paper and see me die, really.
Its always been my weakest link. I can get my brain to memorize theories.
But not get it to spin and solve maths. :(

Business Law - A,
Tourism Systems - A+

Way to go, I need to stop being complacent since primary school.
And keep it up, D. Lets continue to study hard, Bcom 12! (:

Its kinda early, think I'm gonna go listen to some songs, or just wake up and go watch TV, how long haven't I sat in front of the TV for a good 15 minutes?
I wonder how's Darling is doing in Tekong now. He's only booking out on Saturday this weekends, see you on Sat!

If you do see this, I love you and I miss you, Roti Pratan. :S

Monday, July 26, 2010

My Silly.

Hello there, been quite a while since I updated I know.

Been on pause for a while, but my life is definitely not on pause at all. Been pretty preoccupied with school and friends, and him. Too much photos to update, too much outings to talk about. Don't know where to begin and how to backdate.

Think I'm losing my passion for blogging. I want a place to keep my memories, but I'm lazy to keep it alive now. Changed my blogskin again, love this blogskin for its colors and simple layout. I shall see how and when I'll update k. (:

Been eating a lot, studying and food shouldn't come together. When I stay out of home and study with my friends, I keep spending money on food, food and more food. Then my body gains more fats and more weight. Holy Brocoli.

And its 211am now, I'm going to turn in already. Will be out tomorrow with my classmates studying for our exam on Wednesday, Business Statistics. Wish me good luck and hope I can fare well for it. Sixth and last exam will be down on Wednesday. Cleared all my bridging modules and exams, hope I can pass all at least. Business Law result is back, with an A. Not sure about the rest of the results though. Hoping its all good.

Alright, cannot take it anymore. Gonna turn in now. Good night! And I miss my boyfriend, cause my bed smells of my silly now. (:

Monday, July 19, 2010

How beautiful life can be.

Haven't really been turning to my blog in quite a while.

Whats been occupying my time? Its like a routine every week. Weekdays are either spent in school or out with girlfriends. Keeping myself as busy as I can be. Then weekends are reserved for him, quality time with him. (:

So I counted, its been a month plus since he enlisted into army. I must admit starting of everything was so hard for me to pass, I broke down so many times, its like almost everyday I'm tearing and whining and my mind is fucked pretty badly. But now, things are getting much better at least. Its just once in a while where my mind gets fucked again and I start getting whiny and emotional again. Thats when I start thinking and tears when I talk to him on the phone. And lately, been feeling so back again. And it terribly sucks. I was doing just fine, why was it back again all of a sudden? I hope Darling won't be too irritated by me emoing too much whenever Sunday is here. Its just, the feeling is so fucked up. Yet another week. Its what makes me sad and emotional at the thought of it. I try my best to be strong, I really am trying. I fought back my tears so many times already, but some still won the fight with me. :(

His PTP is going to end soon, in a couple of weeks. Then comes his BMT, and he has already told me that this period of time is indeed gonna be fast moving for him and he'll be so tired and there's no time for rest. I pretty much hope he'll be fine and can hold on tight. And I'll still remain as his source of motivation and energy for as long as he wants me to. Because I know that if I were in his shoes, I would definitely want him to drop me sweet messages from time to time and be there to support me, to let me know that he has my back when I'm down and out. That is why, I know how it feels and I want him to feel that exact way I want to be feeling.

And I'm very thankful that though the call times are getting shorter due to his tight schedule and overtrained body, but he still makes it a point to call however late it is. And however late it is, he knows I'm always there waiting for that call before I go to bed for the night. I'm thankful for this, and its still what I look forward to the most in a day. To hear his voice, to listen to his complaints, to tell him about my day, to encourage him and motivate him, vice versa, to be there for each other and to wish each other good night with a "kiss" before we end our night and its yet another day when we're awake. A long day of training for him, a day at school or out with friends for me, a day of missing him so much and not being able to be there with him for me.

But whatever it is, I used to not feel his love as much. But now, I know I'm important to him, I know that I'm part of his life and I'm his source of motivation to push on. I know he loves me a lot. And he's everything that is to me too. I love how he always blushes and smiles like a silly boy whenever I disturb him, with his cheeky smiling face. It makes me smiles too.

I'm happy that he spends most of his book out time with me and makes it a point to spend time with me and be with my side. I appreciate it, I really do. Cause weekends are the only time we can be together, doing whatever we liked, together that is. And weekends are the only time I can feel his hug, have his kiss, where he can sense that I'm not happy and do things to make me happy or distract me from my fucked mind. And weekends, I'm most happy, I know he knows this.

So Darling, I want you to know that I appreciate everything you've done for me. And every feelings you've given me, and I can see your efforts to keep our relationship going. I know you don't know how to express yourself well and you don't always hang sweet nothings on your mouth all the time like how some guys are. But I love you and you're the one I wanna be with now, cause you make me safe and happy in your arms. I know when I'm out with you, I don't have to worry about a thing, because you're there. And you being there for me is enough. I love you, JJ Hu. Happy 20th birthday, Darling. (:

And I'm coughing my lungs out as I'm typing this post. Argh.
No more fried food for me, time to be healthy, this cough is irritating.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

don't know why, its taking over meee.

Heaves a sigh of relief. Tourism Systems Exam down this afternoon. 2 more to go. (:

Today kinda suck, I don't know whats wrong with my mood. Been feeling this stronger sense of inferiority today, like I'm never good enough. Like I'm just so lousy and bad. I don't know why, I really can't explain why I'm feeling like this. Its been so long that I've kept this feeling down, but now I don't know what stirred all these negative feelings up again.

Kinda in a lousy mood. And Negativity always has a best friend. Negativity always comes together with another Negativity. And it sucks, because it makes everything seems worst and everything seems dark. I'm okay, its just this negativity taking over me and I feel that everything about me is bad and real bad. Damnnnnn. Others are always better than me, I can never be well compared to them. Argh. :/

I hate this.
I can't wait to get my I-Phone 4 when its out in Singapore.
That will be something to cheer me up and feel hyped up about for a while.

Going to have dinner now.
Bye.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

runnin' through my mind.

According to the counter on my profile page, its 4 months 4 weeks today. (:

Looking back, I'm pretty amazed by how fate works. Very very much. To tell the truth, my boyfriend now, is actually the guy that I used to dislike a lot when we were classmates and I had never ever thought that we would end up together through all these.

I used to be very irritated by his actions and he's always "bullying" me and saying mean stuffs to pull me down. That was why during the time in Year 2 Semester 1, it was either he's going for lunch with my clique of friends or I'm not joining in. Even if I do, I wasn't happy.

But now, its a miracle how fate works between us. I used to dislike him, now I love him.
And no doubt about me adoring him, because if I didn't, he wouldn't be my boyfriend now. (:

Alright, that's not my point over here about how much he was a nuisance in the past.
My point is, we can't fight fate and whatever happens happens, and happens for a reason.

Okay, digress quite a bit. Time to head back to my Tourism Systems. :/
Examination tomorrow and I'm nowhere doneeee. So stressed out by the amount of information that I've to memorize by tomorrow 2pm. Actually 1pm, I don't wanna touch anything regarding tourism an hour before exam. :/

I need the damn renovation works and all the drilling to stop, its like when it finally stops for a while, it starts again. And the vibration on the ground is getting on my nerves. I don't need a vibrating chair for that matter. Its sooo irritating, gotta head out to study soon. And please Lady Luck or Luck of Studies or whatever, be with me. I need you so much! :(

And the lift upgrading works is gonna carry on for the next 2 years. zzzz

12pm, I'll start on my last chapter of notes. I promise.

Get well soon, Baby. And I hope you pass your IPPT, so that you can be out as usual. We'll go get more herbal tea to build up your immune system. Miss you. Love. (:

(P.S: My blog skin is not very completed yet, I'll get it up pretty soon.)

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