Diona Nicole; That Girl loved by him. ★

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

I miss you, Baby. (:

Its Wednesday night already, I pass through 3 days and nights. (:
Friday is going to be here soon, in 2 days time. That's what I look forward to every week, looking forward to the weekends. Where I can see him and spend time with him. And I bet weekends are what all the other army boys and their girlfriends look forward to the most in that week.

Its comforting when we talk on the phone every night and Baby goes "Darling, X more days to go." And I love the sweet little nothings he tells me on the phone, each and every bit of them. This shows you think of me every now and then when you're in camp too. Hugs. (:

Its funny how my loved ones will tell me and advice me to don't fall too deeply in love.
Because the deeper you fall, the more you'll be prone to hurts, should something happen.

Its like having all the eggs in the basket, once it falls, everything is gone and broken.
Its like having all your hopes and life revolves round a person, and when he/she's gone,
you take a long time to crawl back to where you came from, back to basics.

The more hope you hold, the greater the disappointment.

But think about it, do you actually have control over how much you want to fall?
Can you say you want to give less and just give less?
Love and feelings come naturally, to me at least.
There's no saying putting your love on hold, am I right?

Nothing's up with me and him, we're doing fine and doing good. (:
Just a random thought, just wanted to bring this up and see how you people think about it.
Do you agree or do you not? Give me a message in my tag board.

And Business Accounting to clear this week. Lecturer is hilarious, making us laugh with her drama mama actions all the time. Glad I've my classmates with me too. Entire week of Business Accounting and the new concepts to learn are killing my brain cells terribly. At times I really want to give up, because accounting doesn't interest me that much honestly. I'm weak at numbers but its what I've to clear. So like what Darling say, endure and suck thumb! :(

He endure in NS, I endure in school, tackle all the numbers. I told my classmate, I'm starting to hate money now, no money means no need to do accounting. But I'll love to have more money though! Okay, contradicting! But you get my point! :D

Tourism Systems Exam -- 7th July,
Principle of Management (F&B Operations) Exam -- 12th July,
Business Accounting Exam -- 15th July.

Look how tight the schedule for the 3 examinations are. A few days apart from each other only. Luckily I have no school after this week (2nd July) till most probably 19th July which is 2 weeks over of break for me to tackle all the modules.

Tourism and F&B Operations has the most theories to memorize. System overload, information overload. And Business Accounting is the major killer, theories and concepts to understand, then understanding the steps and procedures. :(

Really, wish me good luck. I need concentration, endurance, motivation and all the luck!

Going to munch on pineapple now, and wait for Darling to call and back to preparing notes for my Tourism Systems Exam. Van-neh-neh, don't say my blog is dead! I just updated! (:

OKAY GTG. CIAO.

. . .

"Don't find love, let love find you. That's why its called falling in love, because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall - Naturally."

Monday, June 28, 2010

100th post.

Everyday, I'm counting the hours. Trying to keep myself busy and occupied, when it reaches night time, I'm counting down and getting closer to your phone call. Trust me Darling, that phone call every night is what keeps me going all this while. (:

Its the 4th week into your army life. I guess you're getting used to life in Tekong already. But can I say I'm not used to life outside while you're in Tekong yet? I don't want to have to stress you out because you've your trainings to handle in camp. When you're out, I just wanna enjoy every single minute and moment with you till you next book out.

Sorry Darling if I've been very sticky and asking for too much of your life since you enlisted into Army. But please I hope you know why I'm doing this and behaving like this. That's all because I really miss you a lot everyday. I mean it, everyday.

Darling, sorry I have been very emotional and crying a lot, even in front of you. I don't mean to, I tried to control already, but I think of you being inside, stuck there with trainings and all, and not being able to be by my side always, then I cannot take it. I think of having to wait for the weekends to arrive again after sending you off on Sundays, then I cannot take it and cries again. Sorry k, Darling.

Damn, I want a hug from you now. A comforting hug to tell me everything will be okay, and you're always with me. Business Accounting is gonna suck me dry.

Its only the first night, its only Monday night.
Comes, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, then Friday.

Seems short, but on the other hand, the hours are so long to pass. :(

I miss you, Baby. Take care of yourself when I'm not by your side.
I love you, you mean so much to me, really. No one will ever take your place now.

Its weird, why haven't you called me?! :(

[update]

Darling finally called up just now. Phew. Missing that botak man so much.

Darling, you won't see this when you're in there. But hope you'll see this when you're out k. Bet you haven't been visiting my blog in a while, I wanna give you a pleasant surprise posts when you're out. Take care Baby, get well soon. Get back strong and full of energy again soon k. Better drink more water and get plenty of rest. You can't let your body go down further. Get well soon, speedy recovery Baby! Feel this inside your heart k. Oh, you no heart already, because your heart is with me! Hehe. :D

I don't care if you people are gonna think I'm being mushy or disgusting or gonna puke after this. But I just want to say this, I love my hunnybunny! Hehehe. (:

Saturday, June 19, 2010

hey baby.

So, whose pretty and expensive 21st birthday cake is it?
Who's turning 21, stepping into adulthood.
On the 13th June last week?

Yes, its Vanessa's birthday on the 13th.
Got invited to her wonderful and successful birthday party,
together with the rest of my classmates on the 12th.
Look at that blessed girl, a whole group of loved ones celebrating.
In addition to her fucking ex cake, she got a candy cake from us.
Special thanks to Yokey and the crew at Made in Candy.
(:

The group of poly clique were there.
Me, Yoke, Sokky, Yvonne and Ben.
A pity a few others couldn't make it.
Boyfriend was in the army,
Serena is in Hong Kong,
Jiayu down sick that night.
:(

But nonethelesssss,
I know the birthday girl was extremely happy that night.
Her birthday party was a blast and,
and its all that matters isn't it?
(:

Yokey and Sokky. (:

Ben (the only one not enlisted yet) and Yvonne. (:

Yokey and Yvonne. (:

Yokey and Me. (:

Okay, she did that action purposely.

Diona and the birthday princess that night. (:

Happy 21st birthday, baby girl! :D

Me and Yvonne with her two favorite balloons. (:

So, yeah.
You're way into the 21st now, babe.
Time to get yourself a boyfriend to love love a bit.
Hope you like the gifts and the mini book I made for you.

And I love you, babe.
Though you're extremely irritating and disturbing in class.
Though you're nonsensical and always leaves me no peace.
Though you're always dragging me out when I want to be home.
But in every other way, you care for me in your own way.
You spent time with me during the past 2 weeks.
(:

...

Next up.

I'm waiting for Boyfriend to come over.
I missed seeing him and sweet sweet with him.
I bet he's still sleeping away, recouping back his lost sleep in Tekong.
Baby boy, quick wake up and come to meeee.
I want to see my Little Black Botak Man.
And play with your Botak Head.
(:

Your first book out! YAY.
Lets go buy your things,
lets go dating, Boyfriend.
C:

Friday, June 18, 2010

My Hunnybunny. ♥

WOOOOHOOOO. Its Baby's first book out day tonight.
I've been waiting for this day for so long, after 14 long days.
We survived through this, I miss him so dumb muchhhhh.

Waiting for him to reach home and webcam with meeeeeee.
I wanna see my black tanned botak man. I know he miss me too.
I love you, Hunnybunny! HAHAHA. (((:

Tomorrow will be a good day and a good nighttttt.
Because, I'm gonna have Baby with me, all to myself.
I wanna go everywhere with him that he needs to go to.
I wanna hold hand hand with him, I miss his touch, hugs and kisses.
I want go walk walk in the night around my house area to the prata shop at night.
There's so much I wanna do with Baby, I hope he won't be tired out.
And Sunday will be half day with Baby, before he books in at 620pm.
Then its gonna be another 5 days without him. Booooo. :(

But on a good side, but what is 5 days when we went through 14 days?
But Baby made it all so easy for me, because he calls every night.
So I don't have to miss him soooooo dumb much everyday.
I be a good girl for the past one month, everyday filled with lessons.
Then at night, go home talk to him and sleeeep. (:

Love you, Hunny.

Friday, June 11, 2010

as much as I would like.

I miss you expectionally much tonight.

6 more days to go, Baby.

I can't wait to sticky with you when you're out.

Endure, push on. I'll be your motivation when your morale is down.

I love you. (:

Monday, June 7, 2010

the kick is kicking in.

Its been 3 nights since Darling enlists. His third night in Tekong for his PTP. I wonder how he's doing. Really, I hope NS hasn't been a torture for him. But I know my darling's a strong boy, he will be well inside. I know I don't have to worry about him, all I hope is he's doing well inside really and adapting well to the new environment.

This 3 days and nights to Diona has been tough, cause I really miss him a lot. Since the night before he enlists, we went out to run an errand for his aunt. We stayed till evening, then we parted our ways. That night, I was so emotional. June 4th, I remember it clearly, one day before he enlists. That kind of feeling that I've is really so complicated. Its like very minute I'm with him, marks every minute I'm stepping away from him. That night, I tried holding back my tears so bad while we were out. But I don't know if Darling spotted the tears welled up in my eyes while we were together outside. I really tried to stop it from flowing out, but when I look at him, all I could think of is, he's gonna be away for long. And I won't know how to be. How he'll be. And I know for sure, I'll miss him.

Sorry Darling, I tried to be strong in front of you that night already. Because I know if I break down in front of you, it will only put you in a more difficult spot. You know you've to leave me in Singapore, for your NS. There's nothing you can do about it, even if I break down, you still have to go. So I've to make it easier for you to leave, not to worry about me. (:

I didn't pluck up enough courage to send you off to Tekong with your family. I wanted to, but I knew I'll cry very hard when you turn your back and leave us. So, I stopped myself from going when I wanted so bad to be there with you for that little while more. If I break down there, your family won't know what to do, you wouldn't know what to do. And it will only make it harder for you.

When you called me on the first night, I was so relieved to hear your voice. I broke down again, cried so bad when I heard your voice. Its like such a relief to know you're fine. But you sound so tired. Darling, now every night I'm waiting for your call. Even if its just for that few short minutes, I'm contented. Though I hoped it was longer, but I'll be understanding. And I know I haven't been strong, but I'll be fine baby. Its just that each time I finally get to hear your voice again, I start to tear again. Its like, just me missing you. (:

Baby love, stay strong inside. You can do it. You'll be out to be a better man, my muscular boy and one that I can count on for my safety and all. I can't wait to see you with your new grown muscles. Hehehe. No more tummy for me to disturb already eh?

Absence makes the heart grows fonder, I hope you're missing me as much as I'm missing you outside. Think of me when your morale is down.

I shall be patiently waiting for you to be back here by my side. About 11 more days to go and you'll be back with me again. Lets countdown. Wait for you to come give me my many many hugs and kisses as you promised me. I'll be strong, you be strong too baby. Muacks. (:

Miss you so bad.

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