Diona Nicole; That Girl loved by him. ★

Monday, May 31, 2010

baby.

Have been enjoying my days as much as possible with Boyfriend. Reason being, he's enlisting in a matter of 5 days. How fast, 2 months ago, I thought about it, gotta enjoy the remaining bit of time and freedom left with him.

Now, its only 5 days away. I know its part of his life, I know he's going to be a man and serve the nation. I know its part and parcel of every guy's life to go through this. I don't have a say in this, only the government has. And Baby just have to go through it.

But that doesn't means I've no reasons to be sad, thinking that he's gonna be away from me for so long. 2 weeks of confinement he'll be stuck in camp. Then, I don't know when will be the time he can book out, and the times that he can book out is so minimum, he has his things to attend to. I know I cannot be selfish to keep him all for myself when he has the time. But sometimes, I just can't help being sticky and wanting him by my side more.

That shows how important and how much he means to me now. And Darling, you gotta know this, and know this well enough. You mean a lot to me now. I'll wait for you to be out from army. Mark my words. And I'll really miss you a lot a lot. I try my best not to cry when I miss you k, but no promises. Because ... Aiyah. I'm a crybaby.

Baby, when you free must call me. When you're tired, must think of me. When you don't have the strength to pull on the training, think of me. When you're missing home, miss me too. When I'm studying, I'll think of you and miss the times.

Miss me must call me or sms me. Miss me must let me know. Must let me know that you're well and going on strong inside, and that they're not bullying you. You must, Baby, you must. I don't want to feel neglected and miss your voice and your everything too much. You know you don't have to be all strong in front of me. :(

Baby, 5 more days and I'll miss you so much. I hope you'll miss me too. We must stay strong and keep this relationship going. When you're finally out, I want a big big hug and a big fat kiss from you. Can I can I? (:

Its sucks to think about the last 5 days before he belongs to the nation.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

weakkkkk.

I think today I'm going to go empty stomach again.

Or just eat and rush to the toilet to wipe everything out again. Reason being, my stomach's being a bitch lately. And by that, I mean a real bitch. It occurs quite frequently now, my mild diahoerra. But that just means I cannot anyhow eat, because my stomach has been weak and I'm so prone to that recently.

Something's wrong with my stomach.

And I hate it, I hate being emptied stomach. It feels terrible.
But I'm so afraid to eat already lah, took pink pills and po chai wan already.
Hoping one of which will help me somehow. I still need to go work later.

Time of the month sucks.
And having a weak stomach sucks even more. :(

I just need to complain.
Rawr. Rawr. Rawr.

Okay, time to log off my laptop now.
Pack and leave for work. Goodbye. (:

I hope I see Baby today, cause I missed him.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Couple of things on my mind, who to speak to?

Yes, if you miss someone, tell them. If you love someone, tell them.
Cherish everything that you've and everyone that you love before its too late.
Life is so unpredictable. In a blink of an eye, time flies, you might have just lost the chance to let someone know how much you mean to him/her. And there's no chance for things to be back again, no chance to ever let them know again.

I miss you, Boy. You don't know how much you mean to me now.

Well, life has been mundane. I haven't been updating, thanks to my mundane life. Haven't been taking photos much too, with friends nor with my boy. I should start taking lotsa photos again, cause it is indeed the only way memories stays.

Getting closer to the date that I dread and worry about. In less than 2 weeks now. I hope to be stronger, I have to keep myself busy and occupied to stop thinking. I hope he'll be fine and well inside. Its another phase of his life, I'm going to go through it with him. Cause I love him, no matter what. (;

Supposedly to go somewhere with my cousin and mom today. But Mom's not back yet and I've no news yet as to whether I'm still needed there a not. So for now, I'm sitting in the living room watching TV.

Tuesday and Wednesday are set aside for work with Sis. Earn money, at the same time accompany Sis. Thursday is the day of my Business Law Exam, its gonna be a 3 hour paper, open book though. I haven't been absorbing well last night during my revision for the module. Crap. I appear to understand during class, but when I get home, I've my doubts again. Business Law, Business Law, enlighten me please.

Friday, tentatively set for meet up with Serena before she leaves for Hong Kong anytime soon after she settles her academic issues. I want shopping, I want to save money and buy the things I want to buy. I want a new bag, new clothes. Been trying to save since forever, months back and still haven't got the money to go shopping. Seriously. My money management sucks badly. Time management too. Rawr, terrible.

Sat and Sunday and rest of the week, nothing on.

7th June, starting my second bridging module, Principle of Marketing. 8th June, starting third module concurrently, Tourism Systems. So, all the way from 7th June to 18th June, I've classes every single day except weekends. 2 modules to handle, 2 exams to prepare for. Lets see if I can stand. I need utmost concentration.

Time is running out, we need to cherish.

To my Baby Boy.
I've my worries, but I don't want to stress you out. I know this period of time is gonna be dark for you. I don't want to add unwanted stress to you or to bother you. But Darling, you have been a part of my life these few months. Please know, I'll be with you no matter what. If you need someone to listen, I'll listen. If you need someone there, as your girlfriend, I'll be there. Darling, do what you're happy with now, do what makes you happy, do everything that you want to do on your mind now. I just want you to be happy, so I'm letting you be now.

I miss you, Darling. And I love you, Babyboy. Have plenty of rest k. Muacks. (;

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Happy 3rd!

Been through so much together,
I've really learn to treasure you more.
I love you for everything you're.

Short and simple, short and sweet.
Happy 3rd month together, Darling.

P.S: Go look under my clock.
♥

Monday, May 3, 2010

april was bad, may will get better. (:

Hey friends, sorry for the lack of updates.
April was the worse month since the year started, but I have faith, May will get better. I hope May will get better for everyone too. (:

There have been nothing much going on in my life right now, nothing interesting. But as you can see from my previous post that me and baby met with a bit of little storm a while ago. Storms makes us understand each other more, yes no? But no worries, we're fine right now. And thank you so much to all the little angels in my life whom gave me a lot of advices and consoles along the way, just to make sure that I brave it through.

And whats more comforting to know is that, I mistook Baby. I thought he was really that cruel and set on giving up on me, but in the end I found out actually a lot was going on in his mind too. I'm sorry that I was so silly and almost gave up. But rest assured, I promise I won't be that silly anymore. We braved through this ordeal together. And I'm loving you more. (:

Yeah, thanks to all my little angels, so much so much.
Serena, Eugene, Christy Cousin, Katelyn, Xinyi, Vanessa, Qianyi, Huimin.
I wouldn't have had the courage if not for all your concern and advices.
Really. You guys might not know how much your concern mattered during that point of time, I'm not kidding, they really are.

And Baby, if you're reading this, thank you for the chance. And for listening to me, lets promise to be stronger okay, promise not to give up on our love. Cause if we love someone, we don't give up! (:

So lately have been helping out at Qianyi Sister's shop at Suntec. To pass my time faster and not rot at home. It feels a lot better doing meaningful things and being out. So, I'm going to help out again tomorrow and on Wednesday.

Whats up with my life next?

I'm starting my bridging module Business Law on this coming Friday. I'm kinda excited for school to start, but on the other hand, maybe I'm not that ready to step out of my slacking life yet. From not knowing anyone, I'm going to make new friends, going to study something that is of interest to me. I thank Dad for the opportunity. (:

Hmmm.

Baby's quitting his job on the 9th. Then, he's enlisting into NS on June 5th. About a month away and I won't be seeing him as much. How tough it will be for a girl like me, who is not so independent in love. How fast, I know the next part of our relationship might go very tough. But I want us to stay strong together okay.

My soon-to-be army boy, you're going to serve the nation next, less than a month from now. I'll study hard and wait for you. But Baby, I can't help but sense the fear building up inside myself. The fear of June 5th coming so soon, the fear of us going through your army period together. 2 years, its longggggg. :/

Dinner time. Till I update again!

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