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Friday, April 23, 2010
we all set too high an expectation.
I'm not someone who wants to be left alone. I'm a girl where leave her alone don't applies for me. When I get upset, when I don't feel happy, I fear to be left alone. I wish that somebody could care enough to do everything to make me smile again. To find out whats wrong with me, even if I don't want to say. Cause I know somehow, if you try hard enough, I'll just tell you.You know when you left, I walked back into my room. I cried in my room. I showed you an angry face, but I wasn't angry, I was upset. I was upset that you gave up trying to make me smile. I was upset and I cried. Because I saw how it was not worth it for you to do everything to humor me back. Girls needs to be humored, and I'm one such girl. I may be throwing a bitch fit now. I may be throwing a temper to you just now. I just needed that bit more of attention from you, that bit more of effort to try harder. But you didn't try hard enough, and you left me. If you know me and understand me well enough, you'll realize I reveal a lot of my feelings on my twitter and I turn to my blog a lot when I'm real upset. Do you understand this of me? I bet you don't know I rely on them a lot. Do you know me well enough for you to search those places when you sense that I was not alright. It affects me a little to feel that you didn't even know that of me, you don't even know this character trait of mine and this behavior of mine. I do not like to be left alone, I do not like to be left alone to cry, I'm a girl that needs attention. I'm a girl that needs constant reminder and assurance that you do. Maybe this is not the girl you fell in love with from the start. Maybe I wasn't like this before. Maybe we don't understand each other well enough. You're from Mars and I'm from Venus. I'm sorry I act like a princess. I'm sorry I always have bad mood swings. I'm sorry I got you at a lost of what to do. I'm sorry for making you upset if you're. I'm sorry that I'm like that, and can't do anything about that. I'm sorry I'm such a troublesome girlfriend for you. I'm sorry that I think too much and ask too much. Sorry that I expect too much from you and push you too hard. I'm sorry I'm not perfect, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry if this is not the girl you fell for. I'm an insecure Diona, and this is the girl I'm. Sorry Baby for tonight. I love you. Always do, always will. :'( |
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