Diona Nicole; That Girl loved by him. ★

Sunday, January 31, 2010

I'm exhausted.

Oh God, I'm so tired of living.
I'm so drained and I don't have the energy,
I don't have the motivation and determination to push on.

2 final weeks.
Approaching this final 2 weeks,
9 days to be exact, but I'm already feeling like giving up.

I can never be held responsible for anything again.
Its problems on my own, my ability to handle stress.
But the world, work, studies are all about responsibility.

I'm exhausted.
I'm really tired now.
I wanna get away, sleep for a good 2 weeks break.

Can I?
Laugh through the days, I can.
But when the real deal is here,
I panic, I worry, I lose confidence.

Diona, you suck.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

轻松多了，可是还有点怕怕。

YO, WASSUP! (:
I just got online, trying to pass time.
Then prepare and head out to meet the rest.
Going for Serena Darling's 21st birthday party.

I'm kinda bored now.
So, lets crapppp.
So, anyway check out the below two print screens.
My FYP weekly log froze already & its done!
Second, we handed up our PM and Final Report!
YIP YIP HURRAY! :D

Whats left to stress over now is,
Wednesday for FYP assessment.
Assessment always brings chill to me.
And I'm very scared and worried,
I'm not afraid to show my fears. ):

And yes, you see it!
All the schedules for UT3.
830, have to be in class by 815!
WHAT THE HELL.
ARGH.ARGH.ARGH.

Something to make me think,
Mom wants me to work before I continue my studies,
save some money to spend when we go overseas.
but I'm not sure about the intake period and all.
I want to make it, I want to study.
I want to have a good future.
Work part time as what?
I'm lazy to look, I'm lazy to work.
And I'm not spoilt k.

Final and last lap.
After this, all is fine.
I'm attaining my freedom soon.
只剩下最后的9天了。
也不知该是开心的还是难过。

开心是因为一切终于要过了。
难过是因为种种不同的心情，
会想念，会不舍得，
会害怕将来，会不知去哪。
会害怕离开自己的comfort zone，怕适应不来。
我更怕失去现在我有的一切。

Diona:"怎么样好呢？"

Friday, January 29, 2010

我要的，呢永远也不知道。

LOL. OKAY.
ITS MARKETING TODAY.
AND I'M LATE AGAIN.
I started off late,
now I'm ending late too!
OH GOD.
no chance to change already lah. ):

Okay, jiayu wanted big mac & fries with pepper and garlic chilli from me.
So I entertained her and drew those for her! LOL.
Going to collect 6 dollars from her now.
HAHAHA.

Okay, time for second break!
food time, dumpling ramen!
CIAO CIAO CIAO.
(:

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

that final lap to freedom, do for it baby! (:

Skipped school today. Was an efficient day, went out with mom to the market for breakfast in the morning, then went to dye my hair at the saloon. When I was finally done with my hair dye, it was already about 3 plus. Then, rushed back home to fetch something. And rushed out of my house to get to Bedok Polyclinic before they close. So yay, got my blood test done. No need to rush there on 30th already. (:

Yeah right, I dyed my hair. Thank you, mom. I got it dyed Copper Red. But the red is not pretty obvious yet, but to me sometimes it seems obvious. LOL. I don't know how to describe it. But yeah, I love it. New hair color for a new year. Great. No photos yet, have been busy the whole of today, no time to take photos. Soon. (:

And guess what, I think I'm almost done with my FYP Final Report. And not to forget the dumb Project Manager and weekly logs that I've been a slave for since Week 1 of school. I feel so good though I was so stressed up and pissed mad just now. But all's fine now, so long as I get the burden off my shoulders for now. :D

7/10/09 was the recorded day 1 of FYP. 03/02/10 would be the last day of FYP. YAY.
Then I can bid goodbye to FYP for good! I can't wait for it! I WANNA KICK FYP OUTTT!
SOON SOON SOON! CAN YOU FEEL MY EXCITEDNESS?! :DDD

03/02/10, I say goodbye to my role as the leader for my FYP team too! GREAT.
Lets hope for now, everything runs well and nothing goes wrong at all. (((:

Alright, going to send email to my Supervisor soon, once everyone is done checking it.
Approved and there I go, send to Supervisor and for now, REPORT IS DONE!
FINALLY, F-I-N-A-L-L-Y B-A-B-Y! FEELS GOOOOD! (:

Good night! I want to climb into my comfy bed now.

他们所为我付出的，我做的一切都永远无法相比.
In the context of the love and dote from parents, you agree much?

Monday, January 25, 2010

"我的豹在新年之前跑走了啦."

Well, I'm not really blogging now. Because I don't like my blogskin now, and I'm still sourcing for nicer blogskin to change into. Then, my mood and motivation for blogging will be back. So, meanwhile, this shall be the post on hold before I change my blogskin. (:

Am gonna skip school tomorrow, so maybe I might have the time to find a nice one to change into. But we shall see how things goes. Because I might be going to dye my hair tomorrow, getting Mom to bring me go. Hehe, so she's gonna pay for my hair. But I don't know what to do with my hair, what color to dye, whether to highlight or not. No clue, no clue. Need suggestions. ):

And I'm almost done with my Chinese New Year shopping spree, spent a bomb outta my mom's pockets. But thank you, Mommy. She ever willing to pay for my sprees. And I know she dotes on me a lot, that's why I love her. (:

Damn, my back is aching so bad. I don't know whether I grown taller or what, but nowadays my back cannot sit straight at all. It aches a lot, and I don't like to be a hunchback, but I can't keep myself from sitting straight because its not comfortable. I want to sit straight too! I don't want to have a bad posture. ):

Sad sad sad, know what. I bought this leopard prints bandage skirt on the first shopping spree with Mom 2 weeks ago, then when I got home today, guess what my mom told me?

"All the leopard prints on your skirt gone already, all washed off already, now no more unique already, just like a plain black bandage skirt."

So, I saw it hanging there on the stand. I thought it was dropped a little, but I turned and look inside, and both sides. Damn it, it really just like a plain black skirt now. No more my unique leopard shiny prints. I didn't even managed to take photos with it or wear it out at all lah. My printtttts. Very sad, and disturbed by it. Somemore not cheap you know, like SGD$43.90 for a pure black bandage skirt now. ):

And so, I told mom this, "我的豹在新年之前跑走了啦，没有了啦。" ):
So, it means "My leopard ran away before Chinese New Year is here, gone already."

Very sad about it leh, but its already past the 1 week period for exchange I guess. Change already also no use, beautiful things don't last. See what I mean. Lesson learnt. Why my leopard never wait for New Year to come then I can bring it out then it went off without me? BOO. ):

Oh, today was Diploma Photo shoot, got dragged down by the rest to go for it. So yeah, not a lot turned up. But for memories sake and keep's sake I guess. Not too bad an idea to appear on a small part of the Yearbook right, to mark my 3 years in RP. Awesome.

And see the image below. Makes sense, girls? And the thing is, guys don't understand us at all, don't understand how much we speak the opposite. And don't take the efforts to understand us I guess. Or is it that we girls are too difficult to understand how we think and behave? But fair enough, we don't understand guys too.

Tomorrow some time will be set aside for FYP, no more Marketing to bother about. Now full concentration on my FYP. And guess what? Its only a matter of 2 weeks and I'm graduating from RP. Believe it or not. 2 weeks okay, superb fast. Time flies. FYP Assessment in 1 week's time, scared or what.

I made up my mind, I'm furthering my studies after I graduate. I still want to study now.
What course, which path to take, where to take.

Life is such a bother.
Good night. (:

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

#41: love how my life is now. (:

I'm so stuffed now.
I just went on a healthy binge.
My dinner for tonight was,

A small bowl serving of vegetable,
a small bowl serving of carrot+burdock root.
1 large cup of Fresh Fruit Juice,
with apple, orange, carrot and celery.
And lots and lots of Raisins.

HAHAHAHA.
very fruity and vege diet for tonight right!
But I'm so full, stuffed now. ):

Marketing Report finally completed my part.
FYP Final Report pending comments from SUP.
FYP Assessment power point slides - 0% completed.
Need to get the team together and coordinate the slides soon!
Last lap, one last lap to go. Endure people! (:

It feels good to clear things on the list.
At least the stress is so much decreased now.
But time of the month gives me terrible mood swings.
One moment I hyper good mood, all chirpy,
another moment I moody, grumpy and all sorts of emotions.
And I don't like it. ):

Good night, I want early night tonight.
And oh, Brother Bear's sick and down with fever,
get well soon, and go back to work! (:

Oh, no FYP tomorrow. YAY.
I'll get my blog done up tomorrow.
Just kinda lazy to do anything about it.
:DDD

have faith in me.

Monday, January 18, 2010

#40: mummy brought diona out for shoppingggg.

Just a quick update.
And yeah, my blog is under construction now!
But I dumb, forgot to save my previous blog codes.
Now I have to go to the various webs and get codes. ):

So bear with this incomplete one first okay.
Will be updated soon alright. When I've the time. (:

Yesterday was shopping was mummy at town.
Love it, love it, extremely love shopping,
especially with my mummy. :DDDDDD

Total damage to mummy's wallet done was great!
Great as in not fantastic, but is a huge amount.
But Mummy still pay with a smile.
I love how Mummy dotes on me, more than my brother.
HAHAHAHA, at least he doesn't bring him out shopping.
And I get to go on shopping spreeeee with Mummy. (:

YAY MAN.
TIME TO CONCENTRATE.
HUMAN FACTOR ENGINEERING.

Talk to you later,
comment on my tagboard,
my tagboard is stagnant.
This is no good, like no one is reading anymore.

):

Goodbyeeeeeeeeeeee.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

#39: where's my CNY shoppping, mummmm? ):

Hello my dear people! (:
Its a Saturday today, & as usual I'm home.
Am supposed to be going to Nessa's place.
But decided to give it a miss, because I'm tired.

And she stays superb far from me,
not a very good idea to go over.
Its gonna take me about 2 hours to & fro her house.
And my energy level now aren't gonna get me there.

But I do want to play wii & sing sing at her house!
Who ask her stay so far from meeeeeeee. Wasted. ):

I'm bored, but I won't be bored soon.
Because I got reports to do, to complete.
Marketing Report & FYP Final Report due,
in 4 days' time, on a Wednesday.
Suck balls, have to rush through it already.
No time to wasteeeeee. ):

FYP Poster for assessment have to be done up soon.
Supervisor asks to see it soon too, meowwwwwwwwwww.
Okay, stop the crap. I'm going for a bit of facebook loving.
Then time to get work done. (:

I.WANT.TO.GO.CNY.SHOPPING.SOON.
GONNA.PLAN.IT.WITH.MUMMY. :DDDD

Okay, this is no emo post k. I'm feeling perfectly fine. But really appreciate those who will constantly ask if I'm okay, just to check if I'm happy and fine. So yeah, I see things very clear now already. If things meant to happen, it would have years ago, or months ago. But right now, it aren't and it won't. And bottomline is, I don't even think my heart is feeling so anymore. I don't think I've feelings for you anymore. I can't tell it myself. So I leave it to God to feel for me. (:

Goodbyeeeeee.
Suddenly feels giddyyy.

Friday, January 15, 2010

#38: we all need to be pushed to grow up!

For once, I'm drinking carbonated drinks in school.
I use to hate drinking carbonated drinks since a while ago.

Argh, recently my body has been shit ass.
I've been sleeping earlier and earlier,
feeling very tired no matter how early I sleep.
Like what my girls say "You sleep so early, wake up so late."
But I don't know why I still very tired and grumpy everyday lah. ):

Never mind,
4 more weeks to go,
Then I'm freeeeeeeee.

I need to take a good break after school ends.
I need to go for a vacation more than anything. ):

Parents are planning for Taiwan trip this year,
when my brother, daddy & me are free for holidays.
I hope to go to Taiwan & Hong Kong too!
And I hope the weather will be just nice,
that kind of breezy, chilly but not too freezing weather!

I.CANT.WAIT.FOR.A.HOLIDAY.OUT.OF.SINGAPORE.
TAIWAN.HONGKONG.COME.TO.MUMMYYYYYYY.

Too bad, Bangkok is out of the choice with friends already.
My parents are not agreeable to that, so sorry Best. ):

Nevertheless, after school ends, I hope to be able to go Genting with my friends.
At least its an overseas trip out with friends, and it shall feel gooooddddd.
with the company of friends, free to do whatever we want. (:

I'm so looking forward for school to be over.
I hate the stress I'm facing from FYP, school, Marketing Competition.
And the Week 16 UT3s, the final one before I gradutateeeeeeeeee

STRESSED & DRAINED TO THE MAX PLEASE.
DIONA NEEDS A GOOD BREAKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

Meeting 3's gonna start in 30 minutes' time.
I'm so bored, presentation's done.
SCM UT2 later after school, good luck to all!
UT1 wasn't well doneeee, disappointed but expected it. ):

AND.
ONE.
THING.
TO.
ADD.

I'M.
GROWING.
FATTER.
AND.
FLABBIER.
EACH.
DAY.

I.
HATE.
THIS.

CRAP.

Byeeeeeeeeee.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

#37: MADNESSSSSS.

First and foremost, just a shout out to my two babes!

Happy 20th birthday to Yvonne! (ending in 8 minutes' time)
Happy 20th birthday to Yokeyu! (coming in 8 minutes' time)

Hope you two really enjoyed the celebration just now okay.
But too bad never see you two touched until cry. LOL.

Okay, this is bad.
I'm getting busy and busier.
And its gonna carry on at least till 20th Jan.
Once I past 20th Jan, at least its less work.
But more stress, cause by 20th Jan,
I would have cleared my Marketing Report, my FYP final report.
BUT need to prepare poster, prepare for FYP assessment!

SCARING.THE.SHIT.OUTTA.ME.

4 more weeks to graduation.
how quick is that, you tell me.
a blink of an eye, graduation is here. ):

Damn, I just stopped my FYP report for tonight.
Time to move on to touch a bit of Marketing Report.
Then turning in for the night, FYP tomorrow. ):

MEOW.
RAH.
HUMPF.

And my stomach has been giving me problems lately.
A lot weaker than before already, terrible.
Whenever the weather gets cold, my stomach complains,
by giving me all the nonsense, totally hate it. ):
(and right now, its churning again!)

Nowadays, feel sleepy and tired duper early.
In the bus rides from school back home,
I always K.O in the bus, wake up go back sleep.
The cycle continues. MEOW.

Can see my body is telling me its tired already!
Totally sees all the signs of it breaking down soon. ):

I'm thinking to myself,
"Look on the bright side, be positive. Think about happy things to look forward to."
But now, I really can't think of anything that is worth my smile. ):

Marketing Report now.
But I'm so tired, I need to sleep.
Good night. (:

(to all my lovely people waiting for photos from today, please give me some time k. totally no extra time for that now. bear with me, it will be downloaded onto facebook soon! promise. love.)

Saturday, January 9, 2010

#36: happy pills with lots of deadlines. ):

(no eh, I'm not emo-ing k! I just prefer to take this kind of photos, no idea why.)

Hello people! (:
I'm pressed by datelines, lots of deadlines to meet.
I'm suffocating, but not yet dying. LOL.
I definitely need a good break, a good holidays out of Singapore soon!

1) 13th Jan - FYP Final Report Draft to be sent in to Supervisor (Week 12)
2) 15th Jan - Supply Chain Management UT2 (P6-P10)
3) 20th Jan - Marketing Competition Report Submission (Week 13)
4) 20th Jan - FYP Final Report & Project Manager Submission (Week 13)
5) 29th Jan - FYP Weekly Logs Freeze (Week 14)

Days all packed like hell lo,
FYP ASSESSMENT, WEEK 15!
UT3 WEEK ON WEEK 16!
Then I'm graduating from RP.
HIP HIP HURRAY! (((:

But its the part before I look forward to graduation that kills me literally.
All the work, the stress, the times I'll miss eh!
I'm constantly reminding myself that only 4 weeks left in school!
Superb no motivation for school, you know?
In graduation mood already.

D.A.M.N

F.A.S.T

L.A.H.H.H.H!

Definitely need lotsa luck, hard work, concentration & attention now!
Spare me some if you don't need yours k, hahahaha. (:

And my FYP team mates are irritating in a way lo!
They know who they are lah,
keep checking my MSN profile to view my updates.
Those changes in my PM & nicks,
they read and say I drama mama.
Like watching movie like that.
):

Retail Therapy will definitely help a lot!
But me no rich lady, no money go heavy shopping.
If not, I'll be out everyday shopping already!

I.WANT.TO.GO.SHOPPING.
NEW.YEAR.CLOTHES.
NEW.YEAR.STUFFS.
DIONA.WANTS.TO.SHOP.
ONE.MORE.MONTH.PLUS.
TO.CNY.WOOTS.

New Year clothes & blahs shopping with mommy soon.
I want to drag her go the 4 storey FOREVER 21 to grab,
wants to drag her go town shopping. HEHE.
Need to find one weekday to go already.
I hate to go out on Weekends, packed like hell.
My mommy also don't like.

LOL.
:D

LOL.
Okay, time to go enjoy my music.
Good bye for now.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

#35: the last lap. (:

Good evening, Diona was a bad kid today. I skipped school, but stayed at home.
Woke up at almost 4 in the afternoons, tummy got better. no more runs!
And I helped Mommy with the house chores today, Mom praised me.
I want to help my Mommy everyday, hope I'll stay good. (:

Mommy & me has a agreement, that will make everyone happy.
She will do the cooking, I'll do the washing of dishes & woks. (:

Yesterday was the first day back at school, not prepared for the 5 weeks of last lap.
Weather surprisingly was superb cold & chilly since I got up in the morning yesterday.
Was shivering as I was getting ready for school, got out of home, freezing.

So, my stomach caught a flu I guess, the toilet became my best friend for a day.
I was going in & out of the classroom to the toilet all the time during lesson & break.
Superb embarrassing I think, didn't even dare to take anything for meals.

So, ended up I only took 1/2 cup of butter corn for my first break.
And then, it was 2 bottles of po chai pills & water, nothing else.
Got back home at 9 plus in the night, on an empty stomach.
Almost wanted to head home during the second break,
but luckily I stayed, because I was having UT2 after school. ):

So yeah, UT wasn't that great.
I don't think I'll do well, but its over.

Just 5 weeks more to go, about a month plus.
Then I'll be out of RP, graduating before CNY.
Great, fantastic, but the period before that is disastrous.

All the modules don't really worry me, except for tests.
Its only FYP that scares me the most, and stress me out the most too.

And my tummy is okay now, now sneezing away though.
Don't feel great at all, headache is on its way.
This is not the time to fall sick, Diona. ):

Uh huh, got things to do now.
Lets see what I need to clear by tonight.

1) FYP final report
2) FYP weekly logs
3) Send emails to my FYP team mates
4) Study for Lean Manufacturing & Six Sigma UT2

Go, go, go.
Goodbye. (:

"The quickest way to find love is to give love.
If you want it too badly, you will not find it.
The most secure way to keep love is to give it space and care to grow.
If you hold it too tightly, you will lose it."
- Message from God.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

#34: letting nature takes its course.

HAHAHA.
Was doing my regular email checks before school reopens.
Then chanced upon this mail from LHB.
I thought it was gonna be some matters regarding FYP.
Luckily its not, look what it says then!
(;

HAHAHA.
http://www.rp.sg/seg/Overseas-Trips5.aspx
http://www.rp.sg/seg/Overseas-Trips5.aspx
http://www.rp.sg/seg/Overseas-Trips5.aspx

Follow that link over.
And read what we wrote,
warning ahead, its a long essay!
HAHAHA.

Okay, downloaded all my 6Ps,
made clear of my UT dates.
Time to complete the Episode 13 of Autumn's Concerto,
then read through some 6Ps.

If possible, don't leave my FYP weekly logs till next week.
I know the team's waiting for my weekly logs.
So yeah, got things to do.
Shall update soon!
(;

Friday, January 1, 2010

#33: HAPPY 2010! (;

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010! (;

First post of the brand new year.
010110, nice date uh.

YAY.
I spent the last day of Year 2009 at home,
had my relatives over from Malaysia.
2nd Aunt, Kenny Cousin, Agnes Jie Jie & Baby Clariss came.
Happy happy. (;

PRINCESS CLARISS! (;
main lead of this post ok.
love her to bits and pieces.
she's so superb adorable,
Pretty big eyes, long eyelashes, fair skin, cute smile.
Love this little niece of mine,
and she's starting to take after her dad a lot.

She took some time to warm up first.

Stared at me & Mum for very long,
trying to get used to our presence.

Then, she got used to us,
and recognize us already,
started to be not-shy already.
Kept going round and round the table,
curious about every single thing she sees.
Touched here, touched there.
Crawled here, crawled there.

But we were all very careful,
not to let her play with the wrong things.
Princess Clariss kept smiling in my house.
(;

See, she tried to grab something new,
but we just kept dragging it away from her.
LOL.

Kids are never tired uh.
Ever so curious about new things.
We were pretty kept busy with her around!
Her movement superb fast!

Now she got a new signature action,
apart from the one she did months ago.
Now is entirely new one, more adorable.

Cousin: "Clariss, 臭臭！how?"
Then she'll do this sniffing action continuously.
Somemore its with the sound of her really smelling.
Superb cute lah.

Then, went out with Aunt & Mum after dinner.
Got back around 10 plus,
caught shows on TV, talk talk, eat eat.
Then, they left at about 1130pm.

It was nice having them over.
But I got lotsa junks at home now.
Gonna be a little too tempting for me.
Bad for my tummy tummy.
(;

Okay, Baby Clariss says,
GOODBYE!
(;

''I smiled through the first minute of my 2010,
because I want to keep smiling every other minute of my year."

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